Losing People

You can be replaced.

Losing People is not a good feeling. It is probably up there with some of the worst feelings you can feel in normal circumstances. Of course, it depends also on what kind of relationship you had with the person, but for anyone close enough, it's a horrible feeling.

The likelihood of losing people increases even more when it's online. And that's what happened to me very recently. I lost someone that I considered very close to me. I asked why they were cutting off connections, I got a reply saying they want to cut off the past, they want to be someone who doesn't need people, someone who they were before. And while one part of me could see the reasoning behind it, another part wanted to argue, that it would be bad for them. That cutting connections with the intention of being alone will just make it harder for them. That I don't want it to happen… but somehow, I didn't say any of that. I couldn't say anything. I just could silently accept it. I think it's also because I had seen it coming. Based on what was happening, I could see it happening. But not this early..

Anyway, back to point. Anyone can be replaced. Even someone you consider your best friend you can't live without. Everyone can. How many of us had a best friend in school who we'd “never stop talking” to having virtually no communication now?

We all are just using each other to our benefits. Till the benefits outweigh the costs , we keep them around. After that , after there's no more benefits or use, we throw them away, or we are thrown away. It's natural. I don't like that it is that way, but I don't think there's anything we can do about it either. Humans or rather life is inherently selfish. The whole evolution thing happened due to their being species who could better survive and reproduce.

This is not even a coherent post and I don't think I have a point to make. Just a random rant. So peace out.